bedazzled

I was wondering why the others can study so much for so long, with such diligence and consistency and I can't. Oh wait, I never really did. Last time it was coz Mama's nagging me to do my work and shut down my Pentium III. It was coz I had to go for tuition classes. Now my Pentium 4 is a loyal 24/7 servant and there aint no tuition classes. Discussions are clearly stated as OPTIONAL.

I am a Junior now (yeah upperclassmen tickets), but I still can't find the answer. Do I not belong to the world of electrical engineering or am I still trying to keep the I-am-not-a-nerdy-bookworm tag. Coz I know real well that I aint reading stuffs that are related to studies.
To be or not to be...... And you only live once.